Thank you to everyone who sent me well wishes over the last few days. Liz, in particular, you've been amazing. All of your kind words and shared memories have really gone some way to help me.
Gus has gone and I'm really not coping well. It's been a far while since I've had to deal with death and it's really knocked me for six. I just don't feel like me at the moment and I'm so emotional. I feel silly for being so upset, but truly he was part of the family and even though I'd moved out, it's just not the same realising that he's no longer in the world. I went with him to the vets and stayed through the injection; I'm so glad I did. He was always such a dependant cat and I honestly don't think I could have lived with the guilt of leaving him alone at that time.
So today was a better day; I think it'll be a long while before I have a good day, but I know that eventually it'll get easier. I've ordereda canvas print of him to hang next to the one of my other cat and I plan to add another little star to my foot tattoo in his memory.
Thanks again for sticking with me and offering your support. It'll take a while, but I'll be back to me soon.
I hope you and your family are okay, pets are family and I have so much respect for you for staying by his side. I didn't for one of our dogs and I've always regretted it. The canvas and tattoo ideas are really lovely, and it's not silly at all to feel upset.
ReplyDeleteWell your jeans are gorgeous! ;)
ReplyDeleteLove your tattoo for him and you know I'm always here for you if you need a chat, it's literally such a horrible thing to go through and staying with him was such a lovely thing to do. He'll know & when you see him again he would have made it nice and homely up there for you all.
The will probably make you cry more, but it's lovely, so I have to share. Google the poem- rainbow bridge <3 xx
love this outfit the pop of color in the scarf is perfection
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Love the colours of this outfit. Those jeans are a beautiful colour.
ReplyDeleteAlso I LOVE your background! I have a huge thing for feathers at the moment aha! x
sweet monday
I have those primark jeans too - they are amazing! Really great way to add colour to an outfit.
ReplyDeleteI know how hard it is to lose a family pet, our dog passed away last October before his time because he was suffering from skin cancer, and I still sometimes cry about it today. Some people don't understand thinking, how can you get so upset over a pet, but they really do become part of the family, so i totally get it. Tweet me if you need to sweet! :) @kfh34163
Your jeans are such a lovely colour!
ReplyDeleteIt is never easy losing a family pet, whether you live at home or miles away. It will get easier, it's just one of those holes at the moment where you feel that it will never be filled again. But time is a healer.
Sending you hugs xx