Thank you to everyone who sent me well wishes over the last few days. Liz, in particular, you've been amazing. All of your kind words and shared memories have really gone some way to help me.
Gus has gone and I'm really not coping well. It's been a far while since I've had to deal with death and it's really knocked me for six. I just don't feel like me at the moment and I'm so emotional. I feel silly for being so upset, but truly he was part of the family and even though I'd moved out, it's just not the same realising that he's no longer in the world. I went with him to the vets and stayed through the injection; I'm so glad I did. He was always such a dependant cat and I honestly don't think I could have lived with the guilt of leaving him alone at that time.
So today was a better day; I think it'll be a long while before I have a good day, but I know that eventually it'll get easier. I've ordereda canvas print of him to hang next to the one of my other cat and I plan to add another little star to my foot tattoo in his memory.
Thanks again for sticking with me and offering your support. It'll take a while, but I'll be back to me soon.