It's a different sort of post tonight. I did actually have the standard outfit pics to use, but it felt wrong mixing something so frivolous in with these thoughts.
I'm having to deal with the inevitability of getting our family cat put down. Which sucks. He's about 10, so not that old, but very probably the most unlucky cat in the world. He's got kidney failure, one side of his mouth has had the teeth removed, he's broken his legs three times and last time had to have both his front and back leg wired and to top it all off he's now got arthritis. Which has caused the last leg operation he had to fail, and he's now got a wire poking out of his back leg. Thinking about it makes me want to cry, and the fact that the vets won't put it right unless Mum pays an extortionate amount (on top of the already extortionate amount) makes me so cross. Plus he can't really go under anaesthetic again because of his kidneys. Oh, and those kidneys mean he can't have any tablets for his arthritis either. So to replace the drip that he's had to be put on every night for the last 3 weeks, he's now on morphine and will have to be for the rest of his life. It's just a horrible situation where he's never going to get better and he's got no real quality of life, but he's not visibily ill enough for me to just accept that it's time to let go. But I know it's coming soon.
In the words of King Triton (more or less), then I guess there's just one problem left. How much I'm going to miss him.
I'm so sorry lovely. It's so hard, when we lost my first dog (had her from since I can remember) was literally the worst thing ever. I still think of her and love her so much, and she will always be a dog that's hard to beat. It makes my eyes fill up with tears still now after probably about 10 years.
ReplyDeleteJust remember the life that he had, that was good and when he was in his prime. You love him, and for that he's such a lucky little feline. Think of the good things, and let that fill you with love.
Kidney failure is probably the worst, and it's so sad he's got this bad so it's hard to think of how he was
I hope he goes peacefully my lovely, and chases or the mice he wants <3 Lots of love to you xoxo
Thank you Steph, this means such a lot to me and really is of great comfort xx
DeleteThat's such a shame, poor wee soul, he's not even old either! They really are just a part of the family no matter what some people say!
ReplyDeleteI know, I feel really silly being so upset when I'm sure so many people don't understand! x
DeleteAwww so sorry, it's so sad. I've had to go through a similar situation with two of my cats one was diabetic and had veious over problems and the other was old age and altzhimers. It never feels like its time to let go. I feel so so sorry for you * big hugs* xxx
ReplyDeleteI think I'm struggling more because my other cat, Tabitha, was so obviously ill that there was no doubt it was the right thing to do. Gus isn't in that state so it's really gut-wrenching even though I know it's the right thing to do before he goes through any more pain x
DeleteI had a similar situation with an old cat, his name was Leo and we had had him from a kitten, but he was MINE and his brother was my mums Firstly he suffered from 'stress induced' allopecia where he chewed all the fur off that he could reach, so was just left with basicaly a furry head and neck, and then not long after that he had a stroke and lost the movement in his back legs. It was heart breaking to have to make the decision to put him down but I literally had to have a day off college because I was so upset.
ReplyDeleteIt will never be easy for a pet to go, but you just need to remember the happy times and when he chasing mice/peeing on the bed etc!!! thinking of you x
I know it won't impact on me daily because I don't live with him anymore, but I'm still a soppy sod and he was such a stupid cat that I can't bear the thought of him having to cope without us. And vice versa.
DeleteThank you for your kind words x